A few days ago, a dear friend called me, her voice sounding extremely distraught. She had just received news that her 26 year old niece had suddenly passed away from an anaphylactic shock after eating something she was allergic to at a party.
What hit me particularly hard was that she probably could have been saved if she had received an epinephrine shot immediately and then taken to the ER. Unfortunately, she did not have the shot on her – not because she was careless but because in many countries including India people with food allergies do not necessarily carry epinephrine shots. Apparently, this young lady was always very careful but the allergenic ingredient was not mentioned – the ultimate fear of every person with a severe food allergy…
As a parent of a kid with food allergies my friend’s pain was deeply personal. When our kids are small, we can keep them relatively safe especially in the United States where the awareness of food allergies in schools is quite high but as they grow older and step out into the world and they are responsible for their own safety every second – it is like a sword always hanging over their head. An intense all-consuming fear that affects their personality. I have tried my best to help my boy address it in a matter-of-fact way but even as a mother I cannot fully understand the gravity of what it must feel like to be careful 24/7 – what they eat, the surfaces they touch, the personal products they use, who they get intimate with and the list goes on and on.
One of the many ways I have tried to normalize living with food allergies for my son is trying to make travel to any place in the world accessible. Since he was less than 1, we have traveled the world over but always with 3-4 packs of EpiPens with us and a variety of allergy friendly snacks and meals to last us awhile. But, truth be told it is always with a prayer in my heart and trying to take every precaution reasonably possible. (An aside: One of my biggest grievances is why do airlines serve randomly tasteless fancy food with no ingredient listings?)
And, the toughest part – even the allergies that they do overcome, is it really completely behind them? In my case the response is a ‘meh’ – not really:
- My son technically overcame his dairy allergy when he was 10 and yet cannot have a cup of plain milk without it causing him some discomfort. So, a milkshake is still not preferable – his constitution agrees more to a yogurt shake.
- He overcame his egg allergy when he was 13 but can he eat a sunny side up? Can he eat a 2-3 egg omelet? Can he eat a tiramisu which uses raw eggs? Not really! The egg needs to be fully cooked and even then, he can max eat 1.5 eggs at a time without causing his stomach to hurt.
- We had really hoped that he would outgrow his chickpea allergy before he went to college but that was not to be – that was a food challenge that he failed. Half hour into the challenge his throat started mildly itching so his allergist had to abort the challenge.
- Not to mention new allergies and sensitivities that have popped up. Avocado in any form was one of his favs but lately he has been sensitive / or maybe slightly allergic to it – it could be related to the fact that those with tree nut allergies including chestnuts or birch pollen allergy seem to be related due to similar protein structures.
But the ever optimistic me is always grateful for the many good things the past couple of years have brought. My little munchkin, is now a handsome young adult. Who would’ve thought that behind that quiet demeanor lay a fashion daredevil? Whether it’s prom night or just another day at college, my youngster never fails to amaze me with his bold and trendy wardrobe choices. I guess the fashion gene runs strong in the family! 😉 Cheers to raising a stylish, sincere young adult – yes he turned 18 earlier this year and of course as always the birthday cake was his fav homemade Red Velvet!
That means that he has been driving for over a year now (don’t tell anyone but I still hang on to dear life willing the car to stop every time he is the driver :P). What I am most grateful for has been his incredible work ethic and the passion he brings to all the things he enjoys doing. That not only helped him earn superb grades but he was also awarded “Excellence in Journalism” ❤
And now, he has entered the next phase of his life – he started college in the fall of 2023 and is loving every moment of it. His dream was to go to a college with a big city campus where academic discussions around social issues thrived – well he got just that place plus his grades earned him a fantastic scholarship. I as a mom wanted a college campus where the cafeteria was allergy friendly. Well, George Washington University is not just an allergy friendly campus, but its kitchen is completely nut-free. The dining hall even has a separate section which is top 10 allergen free and the cafeteria lists the ingredients for as many dishes as possible. That means that my boy can have an occasional cookie or brownie without the gut wrenching fear of bakery products. He has made fantastic friends and is able to pursue his love for music, radio and newspaper – he even tried to rap his way into some clubs. Go figure!!
How am I doing? Honestly – even after 3 months am still struggling with a deep sense of empty nest syndrome but I remind myself grief is also a form of deep love.
Beyond that grief, I have a quiet steady voice in my head reminding me:
- If one has food allergies, one can never drop their guard – like the Navy Seal quote – “Under pressure, you don’t rise to the occasion, you sink to the level of your training”. The level of mental training needs to be that high!
- Despite that accidents can happen hence carrying an epinephrine shot is the difference between life and an untimely death.
- Do not assume that the seriousness of food allergies is understood in all places – be especially vigilant when traveling.
- The mother in me also says that just because he does not stay with me does not mean that I do not keep an allergy-friendly home. I want him to have this one safe haven so he is able to visit anytime without fear.
- Yes, his personality may have been shaped by the constant fear he has grown up with. But we each have our cross to bear so we have to make peace with it and grow beyond it. I do believe he is on the right path…he has grown up into a sensitive and caring adult – one of his last pieces of advice to me before he headed off to college was, ‘Mom, do what makes you happy. I will be fine.’
Signing off wishing everyone a very happy, healthy and allergy friendly 2024!